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Happened too much~

Health seems like getting serious~ feel pain in sometimes~ Honestly I feel so scare to go for doctor~ Keep on telling myself it will be fine~ soon and soon~

But seems like I can't cheat myself now~ It just like getting serious day by day~ I not dare to tell anyone I scare to face it.. I not strong like how others people think but i try to be..

I used to using a happy mask to facing the world..

You're getting married soon~ no one know how sad am I when i know this

I wishes you happiness with smile~ wonder did u see my sorrow behind the smile?

I admit I am waiting for impossible miracle for this few years~ and now I have to wake up to face this..

I hope I will not know anything about your wedding~ How I hope I don't know you~ How I wish we never knew each other.. How I know that you know I'm still waiting you for the passed few year~

I found out I'm lost myself~ Have been long time I didn't laugh like myself~ But who know? I cheat everyone that I'm happy even myself~

Everytime I look above the sky when the time my tears want to drop out~ I try to laugh hardly when I think of you~

I locked myself in my heart~ and I don't remember where is the key to free myself~ someone teach me how~ I yell my own name but I can't get the answer from myself~